First pattern: carried along by yesterday’s pattern. What is that pattern? Go to work. Work driven by sensual desire. Speak without noticing. Think whatever pops up — games, other people’s SNS, shorts. Some words spoken from sensual desire too — wanting warmth, wanting to be accepted by others, maybe. Come back home. Just sit. Time passing. Sleep reluctantly. Wake up in the morning without purpose. And.

Now, a pattern happening right now: I prepared cup noodles — not from my own wanting. Someone else said cup noodles, so I did it. Boiled water, put it in. Why. If I were sitting here alone, it would never have happened. But another person did it. And it affected me.