I started this with the goal of writing 1000 pieces — but I may stop at around 12, just like everything else I’ve done until now. Crisis. Being in crisis. Defending. Inside. Speak. What makes me speak? Because when I speak, my brain feels a dynamic dopaminergic cyclic system. Why — maybe relationship. Reacting with circumstance. Then what I really want is to react with circumstance? Is my dream, my meaning, all just for reacting with circumstance? Not only, but partially? Reacting with circumstance — I think this is the best of my skills right now. But not really. I react how I want. Not how they want. Complicated. Not ordered.