Forgive all those who have made my life difficult.
They have done nothing wrong.

Forgive my parents.
They have lived as the best parents they knew how to be.

Forgive all who have wounded me.
It has nothing to do with their intention.

And lastly — forgive my own foolishness, which set everything in motion.

My empty space is filled by foolishness — yet let it be emptied again, and filled with a new path.
That path is my light and my life.
By that life force, may it be filled and filled again — infinitely, from living until dying.
And through that fullness — may it fill even more of the world.

I came with a question that had no clean edges.

“What is this pull I feel — toward connection, toward habit, toward doing what I have always done?”

It is craving. Tanha. The unquenchable pull of the unfulfilled inner self toward the outside. You have always known it. You simply did not have a word for it.

“But I cannot feel it directly. It is there — I sense it — yet when I reach for it, there is nothing to hold.”

That is because craving is not a thing. It is a process. Like light without a visible source. You see the brightness, but the origin escapes you. This is not a failure of perception. This is the nature of what you are looking at.

“Then what am I?”

You are the craving. And you are also the one who notices the craving. Both. At once.

“If everything — my patterns, my circumstances, the money I am owed, the work I do, every breath and thought — if all of it comes from craving, then what do I do? Do I simply stay still?”

No. Stillness is not the answer. Clarity is.

“What is the difference?”

Stillness without seeing is just another form of avoidance. Clarity is seeing what is actually here — the craving, the pattern, the situation — without the filter of fear or desire distorting the view. From that seeing, the right action arises on its own.

“But the 1억 I am owed. The work that does not fit. These are real.”

They are real. And they are also the fruits of past craving. You receive them as they are. That is not weakness. That is honesty. Receiving the karma you have built — as it is — without clinging, without rage, without collapsing into it. And from that place of receiving — you move.

“How do I move without craving driving the movement?”

You ask whether the movement comes from lack — or from understanding. Craving moves because something is missing. Clarity moves because something is seen. The action may look the same from the outside. Inside, it is completely different.

“Then where does clarity come from?”

From seeing. And seeing comes from practice. Sit. Watch the thoughts arise. Watch the craving surface. Watch it pass. Not once. Not twice. Again and again, until the watching becomes natural — until it happens in the middle of a conversation, in the middle of a decision, in the middle of a life.

“That is meditation.”

That is meditation. And also — what you are doing now. Writing it down. Watching yourself through words. You have already begun.

“Is this path painful?”

At first — yes. You will see what you did not wish to see. The patterns you built. The craving you followed without knowing. But the pain is not new. It was always there. You are simply no longer looking away.

“And beyond the pain?”

Beyond it — nothing you need to acquire. Only what was always there, before the craving covered it.

“Light without a source.”

No. Light that needs no source. Because it was never separate from you.

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“How can I be certain whether a movement comes from craving or from seeing?”

You cannot. Not at first.

“Then what do I do?”

Look at what remains after you have moved. Not the result — but what is left inside you after the movement. A movement from craving leaves something behind. Anxiety. Emptiness. The wanting of more. A feeling that is never quite filled. A movement from seeing leaves stillness. Regardless of outcome. Whether it went well or not — something inside does not shake.

“Right now, I cannot tell.”

Knowing that you cannot tell — that is already Right Understanding. Pretending to know when you do not — that is craving. Seeing that you do not know — that is seeing.

“Then what must I do now?”

Nothing must be done. Only this — see what is here. Right now. The question itself. The not-knowing. The craving to have an answer. See all of it. And in that seeing — you are already on the path.

“Is that enough?”

It has always been enough. You simply did not know it yet.

Everything in this world is connected by a line.
Not a single thing is a separate dot.
Every moment, and all moments, always —
you either perceive it, feel it, and become one with it,
or you live under the illusion of being a dot.
Remember — not a dot. A line.

There is no separate cause and separate effect.
All emergence — every single emergence — is simultaneous.
All at once.

The Four Noble Truths

1. The truth of suffering — “many emotional states, many thoughts that are coming, they come and they go”
2. The truth of the origin of suffering — “based on how much have you understood of how certain things in this world are functioning”
3. The truth of the cessation of suffering — “bring clarity to your life”
4. The truth of the path — “this past is like showing you off if there is something to adjust within your life”

The Noble Eightfold Path

1. Right Understanding — “learn to see how the things are”
2. Right Thinking — “you do not want to look at another being and create something that you would regard as an ill thought”
3. Right Speech — “it’s not important what you mean by your words, it’s important how the other one understands it”
4. Right Action — “first we are thinking something, then we are talking about it, then we are doing the things”
5. Right Livelihood — “by the way of how you are making your living, are you causing harm along this way”
6. Right Effort — “continuously pay attention and have patience in fulfilling and trying to put this type of guidelines into your daily life”
7. Right Concentration — “be aware of where you are focusing your energy, of where you are focusing your intention”
8. Meditation — “the practical way to start and see more”

Questions to ask yourself:

“Are you causing harm along this way?”

“Are you causing harm along this profession?”

“Do you have inside your daily life a meditative practice?”

“What does right understanding mean to me?”

“What does right understanding right now have to do with myself?”

“How does the way I understand this world affect the type of thoughts I am cultivating?”

“What type of thoughts are you cultivating towards your colleagues at work?”

“Do you regard them as colleagues working on the same mission — or as competitors?”

“What is it that you are transmitting in the moment you are opening your mouth?”

“How is what is leaving your mouth being understood by other people?”

“Do you have proper understanding of what you as a human being are embedded in right now?”

“If you think this world is about you — think again.”

-master shi heng yi

The Noble Eightfold Path — master shi heng yi

Purpose: The journey to fulfill the Fourth Noble Truth — the cessation of suffering. Not sequential — all eight eventually operate simultaneously.

Three areas of impact: Mental state / Physical state / The way you are embedded in society.

Core premise: You may self-express freely. But one codex is absolute: you do not harm others along the way.

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The Eight Paths:

1. Right Understanding Look at the world without predetermined concepts or expectations. Learn to see things as they are. Nothing is permanent. Thoughts and emotions come and go — none of them last. There is a fluctuation of things. Observe patterns and repeating structures in the world. If you think this world is about you — think again. You may have misunderstood something. This is the most fundamental of all — everything else follows from here.

2. Right Thinking Right understanding gives rise to right thought. Based on how much you understand about how things function, the right thoughts arise. Do not create ill thoughts toward another person, creature, or being. The absence of wrong thought — that is the goal.

3. Right Speech The absence of ill talk, gossip, bad talking. Not only what you say — but when you say it. Even true words are sometimes out of place. If someone is emotionally charged, using true words at that moment can still cause harm. Right speech means: the right words, at the right time, with the right understanding. Become aware of what leaves your mouth — not just what you intend to transmit, but how it is actually received and understood. What matters is not what you mean — it is how the other person understands it.

4. Right Action / Right Behavior First we think, then we speak, then we act. Pay attention to the actions you are putting into daily life. Every action, every habit, every behavior toward others creates conditioning — 365 days of it.

5. Right Livelihood How are you earning your living? Does your profession cause harm along the way? You can be committed to not causing harm in thought, speech, and action — but if your livelihood causes harm, it creates a fundamental conflict. From beginning to end, no excuses. This is why right livelihood plays an important role in daily life.

6. Right Effort You know the path. You know what needs to be done. But doing the right things is not always what naturally arises. It requires conditioning. It requires training. Continuously pay attention and have patience in fulfilling these guidelines in daily life.

7. Right Concentration Be aware of where you are focusing your energy and intention. What you focus on shapes what you perceive and understand.

8. Meditation The practical method. Meditation brings clarity. Clarity allows you to see better. Seeing better leads to deeper understanding — which returns to Right Understanding. This is why there is no strict chronology — all of these are interconnected and deepen together.

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Only two mistakes exist on this path: Not starting. Or not bringing it to the end.

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Daily Practice Focus — Specific:

Week 1 — Right Understanding: Every day, ask yourself: “What does right understanding mean to me?” Do research. Then go back to yourself, observe the world, and ask: “What does right understanding mean right now in relation to my own thoughts? How does the way I understand this world affect the type of thoughts I cultivate?”

Next — Right Thinking: Begin to investigate where your thoughts come from. Do you regard your colleagues as people pulling on the same rope — or as competitors? That distinction is where the seed of thought begins. Notice what kind of thoughts arise toward others.

Next week — Right Speech: Everywhere you go that week, pay attention to what is leaving your mouth:

• What tone are you using with people?
• What vocabulary are you using?
• What is your intonation while talking?
• What are you actually transmitting when you open your mouth?
• Not what you want to transmit — first observe what is actually coming out.
• Is what you communicated understood by others the way you intended?
• Because it is not important what you mean by your words — it is important how the other person understands what you just said.

Next — Right Action: Pay attention to the actions you put into daily life over the coming 365 days. This is another year of conditioning — consisting of the actions you do, the habits you have, the behavior you put toward others.

Next — Right Livelihood: Examine your profession and means of earning. Is harm being caused along the way? If you are genuinely committed to not harming — it must go from beginning to end without excuses. That includes how you make your living.

Right Effort / Concentration / Meditation — Ongoing: Integrate a meditative practice into daily life. Meditation brings clarity. Clarity leads to better seeing. Better seeing leads to better understanding. Better understanding deepens Right Understanding — and the cycle begins again. How much effort and commitment you put in is your choice. But the path requires continuous attention and patience.